Where grey clouds meet

A person who can't contain their pain can't be trusted. With your life, with your love, with your secrets, with your body, with your heart. 

You can either 'keep at it' externally or you can practice patience, mindfulness, doing the 'inner work', being aware. The feminine way, I presume. Which is 'keeping at it' internally.  It's not about one or the other. It's not about one being right and the other wrong. It's about what suits your inherent nature. The path of least resistance. What comes naturally to you. 

It's the way it is. The masculine leads, the feminine follows. And the feminine inspires the masculine to lead. Even within oneself. Intertwined. Not one better than the other. Both in balance. 

After a while you just learn to live with the pain. It never goes away. It will be there, sometimes in the background, or as a dull ache; while you go on living, laugh with friends, have fun and adventures and have all sorts of experiences. It gives the contrast for you to live a fulfilling life. The key is to never let it overwhelm you, but just let it be there, reminding you of loss and impermanence of everything. 

All my life I got it in the wrong order. I thought getting attached to people helped me achieve a state of love and happiness. Now I understand one can only access love from a place of contentment within. And contentment comes from not getting attached to people and outcomes. It's letting people, situations and things be whatever they want be. Not in a 'they can walk all over me' kind of way, but truly deciding 'I'm not getting affected by external world, I'm okay no matter what'. 

We come to earth with a puzzle board. The people we meet and the places we go in life have our puzzle pieces. Completing the puzzle is the purpose and process of our life. Some people may have more pieces than others. Time also plays an important role. There's an order to fitting the pieces, it's not random. That maybe why some people play an important role in our lives and then we part ways, to be united again. In the interim, we may have to collect the pieces from other people.  Everything is okay. There's no right or wrong, it's about exploring our life theme, with other souls helping us and we them along the way.